Okay, so it's been awhile since my last post :-(
I had a plan to write and post once a week to keep me focused and moving toward a goal. Well best laid plans and all that....
Even though I am basically a self-starter and hit the ground running when I do have a plan after the initial euphoria and excitement wears off I find that I start slacking off little by little, letting the everyday get in the way and putting off to tomorrow what should be done today. I,m not sure but I think part of that comes from me going this alone. I have no one to answer to and I am the only one that knows what is on the agenda for that day. It's easy to get behind and start binge watching a new show as I tell myself, "just one more half hour episode". Well, we all know how that ends! Recently this past summer my daughter came into my room telling me she needed to talk and started right off by saying, "now mommy, this isn't your fault but you really need to be tougher on me!' I was a little taken aback as I was not expecting her to say this I mean what 17 yr old would??? After asking why she explained to me that she realized how lazy she really was. Now this girl is not lazy as she gets straight A's and I really have not been on her since the 4th grade. Talk about self-motivated! But this summer was all about her handling her college applications, writing the essays and studying for her second attempt at the SAT. (she wants a better score) But she explained to me that she realized that without a grounding and motivating figure like her teachers she was struggling to follow through with her summer plan for herself. She had no one to disappoint! She and I had both assumed she could do this on her own but this was the first time that it was completely for her and on her to follow through and she found she needed me to hold her accountable. After we talked about how it was really great that she acknowledged this I told her that soon she would have to count on herself.
Being an adult means addressing our individual foibles head on, learning how to deal with them and growing from that conflict. So of course I have to take that advice that I gave her and apply it to my own life otherwise I couldn't lead by the example she needs. Being a parent is so difficult! It really holds a mirror up! I don't always like what I see but If I just listen to that voice inside I too can give myself that kick in the butt that I really need now and again. Going my dream alone can be lonely and difficult but it is MY dream so I just need to keep my eyes focused forward and stick to my plan. My goal is that in 5 years I will have a small boutique clothing line of sporty, sweet and "girly" active wear. Year 1- open an online store selling my handmade designs on my own website, each piece as unique as the woman that will hopefully buy them. This will help me determine what sells so I can plan my production line and will fund my first run. So that's my initial plan and as long as I stay off Netflix and Prime I am moving forward full steam ahead!!! (but damn those binge worthy shows!!!)
I also need to address that word "girly" next time!
putting it all out there,
5 foot 5' 3/4" (although I am now probably 5'5")